i feel like i have no time for anything ever.

pat was sick this weekend, we didn't have an adventure. no plans for a future date as of yet. He didn't return my text message from yesterday. I am insecure and wish he'd return my text so i don't feel like he's trying to get rid of me. I'm not even sure what i want this think with him to be, i wish i was.

one of the boys on the swim team Michael is in a band with his twin brother Matthew. I went up to Pam's town in North Jersey to see them play and spend monday with them. We were suppose to go to the beach, but it poured all day. Every time i hang out with Michael i end up with a mini crush on him, but he will never like me back and i'll never do anything about it so it doesn't matter. sometimes i like his twin better, but only sometimes. For some reason i feel like Michael would be mad if i started dating mat thew. but matthew is interested in having lots of groupies so that doesn't matter either. It's kinda silly and stupid. peter i bought thier CD which i will let you burn, i think you'd like them.

maybe i should start getting my eyebrows down.

I got my own swim practice today. I didn't do very well, i should have done better, but despite all the time I've put in at the gym, I'm still out of shape. but i'm not doing horribly, i think i can break the records before confrences if i train during september before practices really start.

My life is really boring. I have only actually seen people from school, except for like 2 weeks when i got to hang out with Lauren.

I am only on page 400 of the new Harry Potter, i feel like everyone has already finished.