So today it's raining. It meant that not too many people came to the pool but still more than necessary. We got to close early - at 5.00 - but that means I lost 3 hours of work or 28.50 (before taxes). I'm not making as much as i was promised this year. I want to quit my job. My lifeguard suit still hasn't come in the mail, so i called the company and apparently they had a problem with the order and it will be shipped Monday or Tuesday with 2-3 day shipping (i paid for 3-10 day way back on May 9th) it will arrive about a moth after i ordered it. I kinda want to cancel the order completely, but it's kinda late for that. oh well. It better fit. Joey the bartender is back this year, he's the same age as Kristen and I. He's still cute. Kristen keeps raving about him but i don't think he's as hot as she makes him out to be. She saw him smoking "outside" and keeps talking about how big a turn off that is. 1. she has a boyfriend so it doesn't really matter 2. who cares? I honestly don't see it as that big of a deal. Like yeah it would be better if he didn't, smoking is bad for you, but a lot of my good friends at school smoke so I've kinda gotten used to it and will "smoke" with them occasionally (aka i stand out side and talk with them while they smoke.) Pat smokes and it didn't really bother me at all, so it doesn't really bother me that Joey does. Part of me wants to just be like "Hey i think you are cute, we both hate our job, we should go out sometime" and hand him my phone number. If it goes well then that would be great, if it doesn't then it's awkward for the rest of the summer. (assuming i don't quit)

And the refrigerator broke, like one day it just stopped working and everything in the freezer melted. So my mom and i went to sears to buy a new one, but it won't come until thursday. Currently everything is squished into mine and Joe's little college refrigerators. His cooling thin is at the back and his is so full that the milk in the door isn't cold anymore. So i don't want to drink any of the milk, which also means no cereal or instant breakfasts. I have no idea what to eat in the morning. The other issue this created was that i was making a goal of eating better this summer and was going to make food for myself to eat and the put it in the refrigerator and eat for a week or whatever. So i already had good food to eat instead of just quick junk from the microwave. but alas there is nowhere to store this food i haven't made yet until Thursday. (This also means that i have to stay home on Thursday and wait for the men to come and install our new home appliance.) It's a really nice refrigerator though. I like it a lot. I can have fun putting all of our food back in and deciding where all the shelves go.

I got a new phone. It's really pretty. The official color is silver, but I'd say it's more of a mirrored black. It doesn't have any ring tones that i want to wake up to. The one i picked for today made me feel like I'd fallen asleep at the gym and woke up in the middle of a class. There's a ring tone called "sunshine." I like the name but not the tone, which is ashame because I would like my ring tone to be called "sunshine" (pat calls me that, and so have some other people, Tyler occasionally calls me summer) but it's a horrible song so oh well. As it is my ring tone is called "limelight."

I also got a new pair of sneakers for the gym, my other one's which i still really like are 3 years old now. This new pair is still Nike Trail - but a little different and different colors - mostly gray with a little bit of pink. I put them on my feet and it was like "yes you are for me" I didn't really feel the need to try on any of the other 6 or so pairs I'd picked out, although i did anyway. Shoes are like men, when you find one for you it should be the easiest decision of your life. If you don't buy them right away you'll think about them all the time. I have a lot of shoes in my life, most of them i don't even wear anymore but i keep them around anyway. I almost never wear the same shoes two days in a row (my black reefs don't count - i might as well be barefoot.) I feel like this is also comparable to the way I deal with men. Now if only i could find a man that will be as perfect a fit as these new Nike shoes i just bought. I'll try him out and everything will feel perfect and we'll both just know.

I still need to see Pirates III. I can't believe that Mel and Sara saw it already and they aren't even in America!!! Pretty much everyone that i know here has already seen it or doesn't want too. I don't really want to go alone, but i did see the first one by myself, so i mean it's not the end of the world if i do. I don't know what my problem is i should just go see the movie so i can stop worrying about someone spoiling it for me or having to wait till it comes out on DVD because i missed it in theater. Whatever.

I seriously need to do the laundry. I hate doing laundry.

I need to go to the gym more often. If i don't start going more often and for longer there is no way i will ever break those records or fight off my summer fat. I fell like i will never be fast enough or strong enough. I alos feel like i could work out all the time and eat right and still look the same. I want my stomach to be flat, but i guess instead of have huge abs. Because there isn't really any fat on it. idk. stupid muscles, but on gig when it was nice out and i was wearing my bikini and skirt around, a handful of people commented on my six pack (which i think is only a four pack but whatever) and Ben said it was hot (i think i might have mentioned this in an earlier entry). So i mean i guess it's not so bad. It's just not "ideal."

I'm jealous because Joe gets to sleep over at his girlfriends house all the time. She just graduated! there's no way i would have been allowed to do that at that age! Maybe not even at Joe's age having finished freshman year of college! I'm really only annoyed because i wish i had someone to cuddle with, i just feel so alone sometimes. I really miss living in a dorm.

I want to go on vacation.